KRAMA | does Everything actually happen for a reason?

We enter the yoga class, the instructor invites us to sit, lay, prop up, maybe wiggle and gently stretch. We chant or breathe, close our eyes to center or meditate, we set an intention, theme or focus for the practice, maybe we AUM together. That maybe takes a few minutes or more, sometimes it’s immediate and quick. Either way, that is the beginning. We’ve “started” yoga. Class began when we entered and gathered and couldn’t collectively begin until then. From there we begin moving through movement and poses strung together carefully to go somewhere we don’t have an idea or full picture of yet. But the progression increases in challenge from start to finish, with maybe a few peaks up and down, but somehow always helping us get to the next thing we practice, and all of it collectively supporting us in being able to do the biggest and hardest things we attempt. Somewhere in the class we do something that feels bigger and harder than anything else and then it start to feel as though we are winding down and heading in a different but very welcomed direction. We start the “cool down” phase. And then, before we know it we are the most energetically, physically and maybe mentally wiped out and we’re invited into our favorite pose and part of the sequence - savasana. ahhh. Coming up from savasana brings the room back into a quite but collective “aliveness” again where we are all a little different from when we came in- a little stronger, more flexible, wiser and more present & conscious. The teacher offers parting words, guides breath and maybe one last AUM together. The class is over, complete. And that is the end of the class. But somehow, simultaneously another beginning to the next part of your day, week, month, year, life. The class and all of it in each of its parts become part of a very long thread of experiences you had before it, somehow leading you into that one specific yoga practice and will affect everything that happens after it.

This is, in a very brief and specific nutshell of an experience, the concept and theme for the week:

| KRAMA |

Krama is a Sanskrit term meaning “succession." This can denote a step-by-step progression or a consequential sequence of events. I like to think of it as the natural order of things as they happen one after the other. Cause and effect. In the Tantric school of thought which dates back centuries, we can broadly understand krama as referring to the macrocosmic progressive nature of the entire Universe unfolding and manifesting.

In the current 200 hour teacher training I am co-leading and in every class this week we are working this theme. Finding different ways to become more conscious of this idea and look at it from a lens that really just allows us to open up our perspective of how things happen, both on the mat and hopefully more when we are off of it roaming about our day with a slightly more mindful approach. Beyond the general layout of most classes, there are the aforementioned phases or stages of the class that are grouped together to prep us and our bodies to head into the next; each phase and stage based on those prior. And then on an even more microcosmic layer, there are the ways in which we connect to each posture and work them during the longer holds that work in a step-by-step, progressive fashion. That goes for pretty much all practices as far as I’ve experienced in class as a student in some way or another. The Anusara style of yoga is based on a set of principles that we practice in particular and sequential order which in the class lends itself perfectly to this theme and has definitely helped me as both a student and a teacher reach a greater awareness of this in the practice. We focus physically on the primary and fundamental things first- the things that connect us to the most obvious and attainable- and then progress by working in other, more advanced and complex principles to deepen the pose and expand it further. It’s like the evolution of the asana- the pose itself, the class, and every class we ever take. I feel them as being strung together, painting a bigger picture. In the beginning of my path with yoga things felt more micro- like they were independent and separate. Every good thing that happened was a one-off, every bad thing was some telling detail about how I wasn’t in the right place or doing the right thing somehow- a mistake or a regression.

Krama is a macro perspective with a really big view. Everything leads to the next thing, no matter how small, boring, or insignificant or how big, challenging, scary or incredible it feels. And all things lead us forward and to where we find ourselves. Krama is the idea that everything we experience is giving us access, permission and power for our present and future.

When I remember the natural and totally organic order of things in life, the pressure is off. Everything continues to be threaded along as it happens one by one. The last experience produces and manifests the next. What if I put as high a level of consciousness (mindfulness/presence) as possible on the present moment? (Think the high level of attention you put into what’s going on in class when you want to really grasp something the teacher is teaching that you don’t quite understand yet) To me this means that I can be in it fully, surrender to it and propel myself. And technically, as long as I’m alive and gaining the experience at hand, whatever comes next is what is meant to manifest and I am ready for.

It helps me source a deeper well of gratitude for all the things that have taken place before “now”. Without needing to remember those things in any detail, without having to go back and rethink or relive them. I know that it all brought me here and that it all fills me with the power and the knowledge to keep moving forward in the best ways for me. All the smaller experiences become bigger and more enlightening. The bigger experiences become the grand potent lessons and major driving forces, whether they were processed as good or bad, positive or negative.

Krama is a concept that dates back centuries and is woven deeply into the rich fabric of the yoga practice by way of its philosophy. Whether you see things this way or not isn’t very important. But that it is available to us to work and shift our perspective and gives us a way to feel the engineering of the fun and delight that takes place on our yoga mats is truly the more important aspect.

It is a rooted and insightful way of looking at “everything happens for a reason”.

I know. That saying in our society has been drowned out and has become a such staple and blanket response for us in more contemporary society for so many things. And boy can it be hard to digest sometimes. When things are good, the notion is so welcomed. When things are hard enough, it just doesn’t seem to satiate a broken heart or the darkness of depressed times and lacks the depth that serves someone feeling loss. No one wants to hear that something really terrible happened for a reason and definitely not while grieving.

Learning krama in the yoga practice helps me maintain a broader outlook and embracing attitude toward that phrase and what it might be looking to mean and serve in all circumstances. “Everything happens for a reason” then aligns more clearly with a notion I think a lot of us are familiar with often much later after something has happened, after the lesson has been received, after the emotions have been processed- “I wouldn’t be where I am today if it hadn’t been for…”.

It all had to happen. All of it has to happen. That’s the magic, the mystery and even the science of it.

In a super simple way, I like to think of it like cooking. We start out with a recipe, a bunch of different ingredients and are aiming to put them all together in some orderly and specific way to have a fully cooked meal. Some of the ingredients need to be prepped. Some ingredients get put in before or after others to bring out the flavor in different ways or so that they interact with each other in different ways. We work the chopping of one thing at a time, a seasoning of one thing at a time, a stirring of one thing at a time, and through that process a recipe is put together to get the final product. This all takes time, energy, patience and a knowing that everything that is happening throughout is leading us toward having that delicious, long-awaited meal. There’s no way to really rush it or we could alter the flavor and quality of the dish. Even if it doesn’t turn out exactly the way you wanted it or the way it looked in the picture or YouTube video, at least you know how it’s done a little bit more now and you’ve practiced and have a way of readjusting whatever wasn’t quite right. You’re a better cook no matter what! You’re a step closer to being an expert chef for that one dish.

That’s yoga too. That’s one way of working the yoga practice outside of the classroom. That’s seeing krama in another way, off the mat.

This concept both on and off the mat serves as a reminder that we are all growing from the things that came before “now”. Every lightbulb moment to the painful trials. It serves as a way of zooming the lens out, finding the freedom of disassociating from the things and feelings from what has happened before, and see that we are being led somewhere bigger. Without having to wait for the next thing to happen, it will come. And with that we can truly be present in the moment.

It’s only natural that we humans feel good or bad and mentally reward or punish ourselves accordingly if we can or can’t do something, when we do or don’t have something, or when we succeed or fail at something. Zoomed all the way in, it’s hard not to feel those things! Deciding to slow down, take a step back, push ahead, speed up the process- they’re all options. They’ll all lead you forward in different ways. Your sequence will continue threading. There are no set-backs or finish lines. There is freedom in your choice that can be made based on what is in your heart and based on the present moment that you know will send you above and beyond what you think your choices are “supposed to be” based on.

The yoga practice reminds us that it is our Divine right and in our true Divine nature to continuously and endlessly progress, evolve, continuously succeed because of and through the sequence of moments and events that take place. No matter how they feel to us we’re growing, everything is happening for that purpose and because of that we can enjoy the present moment more, embrace and absorb the stage we are in.

So, maybe next time you’re in class, the sequence will stand out to you more. The how and why we do certain poses before and after others will “click”. Maybe in our next class, as we unpack this them even more in the classroom setting and focus on embodying this sequential order, you’ll find a little more wiggle room to befriend the version of you who is on the mat and the stages of your asanas in that class. You’ll never be in those exact same stage of your practice in the same way ever again! And hopefully that gives you the freedom to love your yoga, your journey and all of its stages and phases even more than you already do.

Samantha Feinerman
Growth + Transformation | the process

I wrote out some thoughts I was having in December and wanted to place them in the journal for us to look back on when the words are needed again and maybe again after that, and until whenever:

I haven’t felt this connected to myself + my outer world in almost a month. [And I know that things move and ebb and flow continuously, so this too will pass and I will likely disconnect in some way again.]

And it’s got me thinking. Feeling. Formulating. And wondering.

Because, well, this happens. This happens to everyone. And this happens to everyone all the time.

The feeling of

Disconnection.

Disjointedness.

Having fallen off of something and landed somewhere that’s similar to where you feel you are normally, but is really different and full of conflict, discomfort, uncertainty, maybe even helplessness or powerlessness.

Out of practice. Less in your body. A little strange and dissimilar.

Wanting to reconnect and knowing why “it isn’t working” when you do. Staying in practice but feeling it less.

Less an ebb, but maybe more the product of the ebb when we maybe forget to stay more conscious during it. Or perhaps the product of the ebb because prior to it, the flows you’ve been blessed with have left you in such a high state that triggered even the slightest of notions that “you did it”, and so the auto-pilot kicked in.

And so the body and the mind and the energy swimming around inside of you catch ther ebb but you are less grounded. And then there’s conflict: unrest, strange, disjointed things you notice but can’t pin.

Conflicted with your choices. Less present in your actions. Less connected to your inner body changing patterns and cycles and reacting to each tiny thing that is off or inviting you back to a previous state in which it did not thrive.

But Nature, the Universe, always has a way of communicating to and with you- until you not only hear, but you listen and begin to pay closer attention. Until you see.

[How does it do this?]

The body disagrees. It messages irregularity, inconsistency, pain, discomfort, illness. Your outer world becomes less pleasant, less where you want to be until you notice and begin to question how you got there and why.

In a more positive light, maybe you start to feel inspired to read something, try something new, change one simple thing to another simple but different thing.

Maybe that happens right away or maybe it’s days, weeks, months or years before a pattern, a groove you are stuck in, a samskara you have been digging into [whether that be consciously or subconsciously] even becomes noticed. And then there is time between noticing and finding the will to do things differently. And again more time between will and action in practice.

In and through that time there is growth and transformation. Small ways being paved and sometimes greater jump and leaps ahead along the path wehre things deepen, connect and feel & look more crystal clear than ever.

When the connection is clear-

Not to be confused with the highs that come in life-

When you get those moments where you feel at home, in union, in peace with yourself and your outer world, it’s worth noting as well as celebrating. It is worth understanding and writing down somewhere. It is worth sitting with and embracing. It is worth sharing. And then it is worth remembering.

That we continue to embrace and awaken our consciousness to heighten our reality and find a more magical connection with ourselves and each other- that’s the practice and process of curing the divide, disjointedness, inner and outer conflict, and periods of disconnection in as much a way as possible.

That we stay tuned in to the always live and in real-time, present moment. As it is always the answer. Even if the answer doesn’t come to more realized fruition for some time.

These are our reminders to trust and continue.

These are our reminders that we have been given the unique gift of being embodied.

Reminders that come not-so often but serves as it’s own blissful gift in the day-to-day reality. And the same unique gift we all share. The same gift that you reading this also have.

Whatever it is that you do to connect with yourself-to listen, to see, to feel, to understand rather than know, make time for- it’s all working.

And if the connection is informing you that what is working is not agreeable- there is more and the Universe is all yours.

Samantha Feinerman
hello, 2019

this page of words, ideas, thoughts, and even small practices is still fresh and continuing to evolve.

Thank you for happening upon this page and glancing over the words in 2018.

Thank you for attending class and growing with me in 2018.

Thank you for raising the bar with me last year.

Thank you for choosing yourself and your practice- the only reason that you would end up here is because you did that in any way.

And welcome to the new year.

While I will continue to share things in the same, organically inspired way to offer longer thoughts, deeper feelings, written teachings, and maybe in 2019 more video content-

I’d like to add to this journal that ends up being a product of the practice more of myself as a student of it as well. That is, after all, how I came to be a teacher and what ultimately guides my teaching through the teaching framework and backgrounds I’ve studied. It’s the fact that I practice yoga and have integrated it from my mat into my body, into my mind, into my heart, and into my life that I see it in all things and can connect others to it at all.

So this year I come to you as a student first and foremost. And yes, as a teacher as well. These are two ways of existing that I can’t help but be at the same time. And my hope is that I have more free channeling and more connection to offer. It may not look or feel different. But as I’ve spent time writing, deleting, thinking and conceptualizing this space in the last year, for me at least, there has been a self-inflicted pressure based on the idea that teaching is the channel I thought I needed to voice more. And well, I have more in my heart and a lot on my mind and pressure I’d like to release in 2019. Not just here, but all around. I’m beginning open. I’m guiding opennenss. And I’m seeing where this all goes.

I’m looking forward to this year. I have been since last year. And I believe we are all ready for things that have yet to really make themselves clear. But we’ve put in a lot of work.

So let’s begin this phase with the broadest vision and heart.

I’m sure you’ve set some goals, resolutions and/or intentions.

Share them with me, with us.

What are you opening up to this year?

What do you want to receive?

What do you want to create?

What would you like to channel?

\ Let’s open up /

Embracing the Practice | Thanksgiving

I simply wanted to share and leave in a permanent place thoughts that a friend wrote today and put up on social media. It felt right, relevant and so close to what is in my own heart- perhaps articulated better and written more eloquently than I might have done been able to express myself.

Her words resonate with me and I read this to my class this afternoon to meditate on after our practice centered around gratitude. And now it is an honor to place her words in the Practice Journal, as everything she is expressing are of the practice and good to keep in our hearts as we head into this holiday.

Breathe as you read:

As we in the states observe Thanksgiving this week, in whatever way feels the most in integrity for us, there is something that I would like to share for anyone willing to read.

Life is weird these days, no? It seems so many have abandoned logic and reason, the leaders are driven more by narcissism, defensiveness, and self-preservation, and every day it seems there is news of more people hurting. More people being left behind, ignored, even killed.

It's difficult to think of spending a day with our families, giving thanks for all we have, when so many are displaced, so many have experienced so much loss, and we're inundated with blatant racism, bigotry, and hatred.

And yet. What this has made apparent to me is how powerful, and how necessary, our right consciousness is not only for us but for everyone.

The level of darkness in the world only makes the light brighter and when we choose to place our awareness on the enduring good that is everywhere, we become the answer. We speak differently, we act differently, we become the expression of our belief and when we believe in the power of love to overcome, no matter what the news tells us, even when we're in the worst case scenario, we become the solution. We set into motion the change we want to see whether or not we see it.

So this week, as we're gathering with family and setting our sights on gratitude, please feel the gratitude all the way. Join me in recognizing the forces of good that are everywhere and set an intention to keep your light lit even when it's dark, *especially* when it's dark.

- Kelly Sue

Happy Thanksgiving.

Namaste | the light, the Spirit within me recognizes and bows to the light, the Spirit within you

Samantha Feinerman